Monday, December 29, 2008
Differences relived from the past
Serenity in a tight shut jar
Meander in our fields from afar.
A sun dipping low in the river
Crystals fall on every step closer
Boats glide on to neither there or here
Senses shut down and they whisper a prayer.
And its in Neverland I used to hum
My little, forgotten tune
A snag in the time-space continuum
Now the memory lies in ruin.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Casts and mice,
All in a bin
The devil and my sin
Motley Crue and Dr. Dre
Make haste while it's day
A wide and cutely dimpled face
"Thouroughly and utterly bored. That should explain this piece of nonsense. =D
Merry Christmas Everyone..."
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Like the sun that radiates innocence at dawn
Like the purity of fresh, unabated pain
Like the first steps to an unconditional faith
Like the roads that take you home
A dress with a tear that only you can see
A mistletoe waiting for a new, wet kiss
A broken kaliedoscope - unused
A bird that's forgotten to sing
This world that's trying to breathe.
And I fear I've forgotten to dream
The mist strays too low
And I can see you holding your hand out
Way too far
And I said I'd never compromise
And I wished for a happy ending
When I flung myself over a steel rail.
But now I'm flying
Would you like to fly with me?
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Losing breath and gaps of insight
Mighty love and slight disguise
Your wondrous smile and my misdemeanour
Empty words and an easy conscience.
On his weary sabbatical
The junkie meets the boy
Truth falling through
A life sentance!
Addicted to pretences
Nicotine, coke, love, vengeance
Hiding from a dimming light
Long live music.
Come back to where it all began
Experimenting, falling, saving
Lie after lie of cool deception
Hate after drugs after love.
Are we all gonna make it?
I hope not.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
That neither you or I or them
Are equppied with any sense
Of chivalry or honour or atleast courtesy
That might not for even a second
Suggest mockery of an insidious kind.
Life springs upon us the best and the worst
The warm and the cold
The cute and the ugly and the pretty
And then the nightmares and a not much better reality.
And it's hard to make a distinction
Draw a line
Make meaning out of a hapless situation
Where do our loyalties lie?
I know that nothing lasts
I know that mortality reigns
But I also know that these tears are real
What do we live for?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
And there were fireworks and a thundering rhythm of drums...
Lips travelling down my neck
Your breath making its way to me
A possessive arm around my waist
While the other roamed free.
And right then, time was lost
Two identities dissolving into one
And life ceased to mean anything much
Other than your love, other than THIS now.
You fill me with a desire that I didn't know I possessed
My thirsty soul could drown happily in your arms
A frenzy art of limbs and blur
Colors vibrate in the moist atmosphere.
And there are nights you rob me of my sleep
Dreams of rapture, your skin against a burning mine
Misty eyed I wake - waiting, hoping, dreaming
For it's your arms I seek, your touch I need.
And I wish I could say I've figured you out
But everytime I get comfortable
Your leg slyly steps in, tripping me
And I fall obligingly all over again...
Monday, November 10, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
i want to fade into the nothingness
that is amnesia.
erase the mistakes. write over them.
or get a mask.
am tired of waiting
for things to happen to me.
want to break
hide and then seek
i need a new name
so they cant trace their lives
back to me or us or them.
here i am
like a tree
thats stuck to the ground
and can only reach for the sky
going to be a tad too outta reach.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
With pretty yellow curtains
And a clean silver sink.
With a bunk bed of two levels
And a radio right next to it.
I would park it on a low lying hill
And when I peer out of my window
I'll see a tiny pond
With ducks, bullfrogs and blue lotuses.
I would travel all day through muddy, matted roads
To see the forests and the frost.
At night, I'll come back to my little hill
To wait for you to drop in.
It'll be like playing "house" like we did -
When we were young.
You can be Daddy and I'll be Ma.
Or you could be the Prince
Courting the Princess
Rescuing the damsel in distress. =)
I wish I lived in a trailer
I'd paint it green and yellow
And I'd fly it to the moon and back
And I'd take you with me as well.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Within my little world.
And many have trodeen in and out.
And many have left. And many pushed to leaving.
And still some have stayed. Few. Rare.
I open my little diary. Pink. Again.
I know your regrets. I've carried them once.
And there's so much of shame. And there's so much of guilt.
And very little love. Be quiet. Be still.
I share my little heart. You. Here.
I know your touch. I know your taste.
And there's so much to give. So much to live for.
And time seems to be running away. Loud. Restless.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Flowing along the undecided current
Stomach churning, eyes stinging
It's all blue, salty and well... blue.
And I'm walking along our road
Head bowed to the ground, watching for footprints
Snapshots of our love among the white and yellow flowers
And the scent will always - ALWAYS - haunt.
Now I lay in my neverland
I've dreamt of lying on this patch of grass
With music floating between us
And the kind of silence that's nice.
Right then I was flying
With the wings that you solemnly put on my shoulders
And I pretended I'm an angel
Hoping you are secretly watching.
But here I sit in my vacant corner
Listening for the bell
Hoping for the best, Ignoring the rest
Missing you the most...
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
With every syllable
We part with turned faces
Of fragmented thought
Time stood still
In that one tiny secret moment
I felt my heart jump
Shocked into motion
I wonder if you even noticed...
A figment of sultry imagination...
The sun faintly taunts.
I could wish you into being
Right next to me
Surpassing my expectations
That wither and grow
With passing moments.
You ARE here
Doesn't really matter.
Friday, October 3, 2008
She had disappeared so slyly and I didnt even realise how I was standing there, listening to a disoconnected silence... Not that it wasn't silent when she was around but we were so comfortable, sharing our minds like clothes ; our bodies managed to keep us apart only that much after all... We used to laugh at all the crummy people who wanted to be our friends and we would lead them on, till we got tired of them... Discarding them, like used toys... And I remember the emptiness crashing around me had been deafening, when she left, and I wondered if I should scream out or maybe kick a stone or cut my wrist or something... That would piss her off... =)
But she wasn't coming back and I had to hunt her down right? Striding down stinky streets, or running up a lonely hill, all I found was my deflating hope and more than anything I wanted to know how she could possibly stay away when I was slowly fading without her?
Volatile phases and drab metaphors
The world's gone but you're still here....
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Faintly this pulse thuds along
Ignoring the humdrum, the push and pull
The apocalyptic lull that's creeping
Into a heart that's being held at ransom
By your placid eyes, your hearty laugh
Your achingly charming loyalty
Surreal, this sky that envelops
Us in its moody shroud
Sullen at times, joyous at times
But always -
Watching us as we go about
Staging our myriad plays
As we go astray
Only to come back
Gullible and gay....
Monday, September 8, 2008
Saturday, August 30, 2008
They tell me I've outgrown my worn out appearance
That i am bigger than me and smaller (much smaller) than this ego
And i could scream at the insanity that grows
In circles and spirals and cones and squares
Within my room, inside my head, thumping in these pale veins
That have grown weary of the abuse.
Have you ever listened to the silence?
The suffocation is enough to take my breath away
But just when I think it's over, the tension crosses over
Kicking open the floodgates of everything that's never been shown
And i'm free, free to fly and in that glorious moment
The body loses meaning and it's me, my soul and my God
The God that knows nothing, except everything.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Millions of stars and they're nver the same
An angel made of moonlight hums
The sky reflects a pair of twinkling eyes
Lesser gods have been born
On this land that never stops to weep
And when the callousness of it all seems to spiral
Out of control, out of reach
You step forward
As if out of the wisp of a tiny feather
Smooth, frail, yet strong enough to weather any storm
And i could have sworn ive known you before
Somewhere between the curtained folds of time
Not once, not twice, but every single time
And the culmination of it all
Summed up in the touch of your finger
On my nape
Brushed ever so slightly.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
I remember how we made the world look small
Our hands following light green constellations
We watched how our time was crashing down on us.
Suffocated - we clawed our way out
I stayed, waited - subdued yet assured
In your strength and my stubborn stance
On everything that finally turned out to be false.
And there is nothing in me that hasn't been yours
There is no rebellion that wasn't once our cause
There is no shame in what's been lost
And there is no way i'll let you have the last laugh!
" Hmmmm.... So this one's to the bygones... People meet... Have a lot of fun... Then shit happens... And then you go your seperate ways... Simple enough right? Except what do you do with the part of themselves that they've conveniently left behind with you??! "
Friday, August 8, 2008
Drowning visage of a sweeping sky
Ornamented barely, simply
Like the flourish of an artist's brush
The clouds curl and swagger... Unaware and uncaring.
The foothold eludes each unsure step
Pools of amber implore
Tug ever so lightly and clasp
At a reality that's cunningly warped.
Limping god of anarchy
"Watch the false vengeance -
Of a lost generation."
She seems disenchanted
Worrying over intricacies
And she knows it.
Disquiet bubbling into exasperation
She loves, hates, messes up and skipping...
Dissolves into the dipping horizon
Of the glittering night sky.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Blackboard's wiped and the room's stark,
Light streaming in through fractured glass,
Fears repressed as the confusions starts.
Tick tock goes the forced clock,
Time's conical existance unlocked,
Tentative thoughts slip under the rock,
I'll make up my mind when you stop.
Life lessons are yet to be unlearned
Feeble voices within left unheard
The black sheep's following a lost herd
You could change yourself as life unfurls.
"And yet the soul dies every night
Only so you could wake her up -
Monday, May 19, 2008
Clamouring thoughts demand attention
Images of you, unnecessary distortion
As reality waits with its head bowed
I long to run away to safer places
As reality approaches steadily
I wish for our childish illusions to stay
Would love to give what I'm holding back
If you could accept the morals I lack
Would hate to give you up again
If only this moment would forever remain
Love. Need. Prayer. Friend. Love
Viscious Circles consume what's left.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Underneath a roof, above the broken mask
Tokens of remembrance scattered around
Consume what's left of a hapless mind
Listless hands search for something to break
As malice churns out of an endless void
A distended dignity comes slowly undone
The soul degrades while the sun burns
The Holy Father weeps for an abandoned heir
As on a peaceful Sunday spent in seclusion
Merely rise to make an empty statement
And flowers wilt when butterflies are killed
The bosom craves to feel real pain
Confused about forsaken love to numbness
Unchanged are the vows, only people
As make believe morphs to destiny
And here you shall stand till eternity or so
Waiting for the ship to come in...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
But the black waves tumble and die
I wonder if I could stall this ending
The lazy clouds stray across my sky
And I trust this vengeance for it is true
Endless conversations have gone stolen
I trust your word for it is my truth
Ill take myself home when you're done
One time, two time, three time, four
The slashes ooze unbidden rage
If I could rewrite our twisted lore
The fallen angle wouldn't be disgraced
So you can take back all the words you say
I'll still remain your unnamed whore
And if I live each day silently away
Do I still not bring this death close?