Cross my heart and...

So I'm underwater this minute
Flowing along the undecided current
Stomach churning, eyes stinging
It's all blue, salty and well... blue.

And I'm walking along our road
Head bowed to the ground, watching for footprints
Snapshots of our love among the white and yellow flowers
And the scent will always - ALWAYS - haunt.

Now I lay in my neverland
I've dreamt of lying on this patch of grass
With music floating between us
And the kind of silence that's nice.

Right then I was flying
With the wings that you solemnly put on my shoulders
And I pretended I'm an angel
Hoping you are secretly watching.


But here I sit in my vacant corner
Listening for the bell
Hoping for the best, Ignoring the rest
Missing you the most...

Chemical Compound

Inched closer
With every syllable
We part with turned faces
Every note
Every chord
Of fragmented thought
Disfigures.

Time stood still
In that one tiny secret moment
I felt my heart jump
Shocked into motion
I wonder if you even noticed...
Probably not
A figment of sultry imagination...
The sun faintly taunts.

I could wish you into being
Right next to me
Inside me
Around me
Protected
Surpassing my expectations
That wither and grow
With passing moments.

But
You ARE here
Forever
Wherever
Doesn't really matter.

De Nouveau Part 1

I was so tired right then... Of all the searching and the waiting and most of all, of all the running... My legs cramping up, muscles a hard knot, all I wanted was to sit down... But I HAD to find her!!!

She had disappeared so slyly and I didnt even realise how I was standing there, listening to a disoconnected silence... Not that it wasn't silent when she was around but we were so comfortable, sharing our minds like clothes ; our bodies managed to keep us apart only that much after all... We used to laugh at all the crummy people who wanted to be our friends and we would lead them on, till we got tired of them... Discarding them, like used toys... And I remember the emptiness crashing around me had been deafening, when she left, and I wondered if I should scream out or maybe kick a stone or cut my wrist or something... That would piss her off... =)

But she wasn't coming back and I had to hunt her down right? Striding down stinky streets, or running up a lonely hill, all I found was my deflating hope and more than anything I wanted to know how she could possibly stay away when I was slowly fading without her?

Of long days and insomniac nights

I've been sitting still for so long, the light around me has changed color four times already, from a happy blue to a dull blue to a sad blue to a downright gloomy blue... The day is longer than it should be allowed to be and I'm just done making up a shabby itenerary for the day... How I hate my own company when it's being forced down on me!!!

Volatile phases and drab metaphors
The world's gone but you're still here....

Why???

Cul De Sac

Faintly this pulse thuds along

Ignoring the humdrum, the push and pull

The apocalyptic lull that's creeping

Into a heart that's being held at ransom

By your placid eyes, your hearty laugh

Your achingly charming loyalty

That stays...

Surreal, this sky that envelops

Us in its moody shroud

Sullen at times, joyous at times

But always -

Omniscient

Watching us as we go about

Staging our myriad plays

As we go astray

Only to come back

Gullible and gay....