Friday, March 4, 2011

Long Division.

Some impasse this turned out to be. Between cold, dead words and warm life there’s this little crack where I managed to get myself wedged into. There are no epiphanies here, only choice revelations of amoral overtones. And I have been no saint. No siree. You can rejoice now but only there’s this question of sleeping business and so forth and so on. You get me?

 

Ofcourse not, you’d say or I’d think you’d say but that’s not what we’re talking about. I thought I’d write you a poem, one of those Neruda-esque heart warmers, beat skippers, mill of the run types. But that’s all been done and said and whispered in ears too many with little results and much ‘too many’ dismay and sorrow. We perform our way through life not knowing we’re on stage, not realising that we’ve created scenes that we have to probably stash away in the deleted scenes section of the blue ray disc edition. But YOU are no deleted scene, my love. You are the disc cover, if I could be straight with you here. With you around I know where I stand, centre of the universe, centre of you, centre life. You are shiny, new and quite the collector’s item and you’re all mine for now. Get me?

Monday, February 14, 2011

I can't learn from experience. Like ever.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Love Letters

There's a dead place, oozing sedated thoughts and lingering phobias that don't match the sensibilities of our time together. Lethargic, I spend a trifle more than I hoped I would in the barter of our life moments that come in on tiptoe, taking us by storm. I see you there. Wide smiles and an upturned heart. When do you tire? Why don't you?

And you scratch open little tears in my skin, wriggling in like you know where you're going. I would hold up sign boards but I couldn't possibly be that forward. You know this don't you? The shape of our lives made out on our bed, a jumble of legs and arms, hearts on torn sleeves, eyes melting in the afternoon breeze. It's a poem, yes. Made of sweat and tunes. Like train wrecks and ruins. You and I are stories made from deep fires. And I'm quite sure I love you.



Sunday, December 26, 2010

Kat.

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Saturday, December 25, 2010

Take Me With You.

1.

The candles sing a tender song

Under my lover's desk, casting silhouettes

On my weeping self.

Under there, I reach an epiphany of sorts

I can't see them, until they sing.

My birds have nowhere to go

Until you sing.


2.

This body wastes

Long runs in black stockings new

Lying next to the shoes that you're hurriedly putting on.

Scared of the memories that are slipping

Right away at the Goodbye.

Maybe he'll forget

he was here.

I wouldn't lie to you, no

I'm scared.


3.

Awaiting anonymous arms

Anonymous nights

With anonymous songs.

Some lessons yet to be learnt

Awaiting new love

In some stranger's arms.

Yet I might look for a letter

Now and then

Bearing your signature

And that unforgettable scent.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Dear Manooo :)

And we're like sunsets
Descending in spirals
Cascades of color
Mirrors turned inwards.

And we drift mostly
Coming back hitting dead ends
Lonely brushes of paint against a wall
We drift.

And we're musical tonight
Sights set at the coastline of a dying city
We'll sing
When everyone else sleeps.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Nothingness

I think I'm leaving a trail so you'd catch up. Shared portraits and croaked lyrics. Mistake after regret after mistake. You'd think there's a trail to follow.

And it comes and goes. Somewhere our decisions collide between bursts of sleep. Somewhere you wait to think to act. Somewhere our dreams are slipping away. Nothingness.